A quick who, what, and why.

Who?

I am a Software Engineer working in the Information Assurance/Security field. Currently I work for a major internet company in their security division. My life has taken me part way around the world, I’ve experienced things most people have only dreamed of, and I have dreams, goals I wish to achieve beyond software.

What?

My goal with this blog is to keep a day-to-day record of thoughts, ideas, feelings, and health issues.

Why?

I have fibromyalgia (FM or FMS), possibly since childhood, definitely since carpal tunnel. Late March 2011 I developed pinched nerves in my carpal tunnel and guyon’s canal of both wrists. I could barely sleep, more than a few hours in front of the computer would leave me in tears, driving was painful, and I could no longer keep up with my job or housework. The lack of sleep fatigued my body, deep aches developed, and I could barely eat. This lasted for a few months until I had carpal tunnel surgery, which would release the pinched nerves. After surgery I started to heal and felt like I was recovering, but at one point the pain leveled off and never went away.

I’m lucky, I am capable of getting this site setup. I’m very lucky as I am also able to maintain a full time job, friends, a relationship, and hobbies, even if just barely. There was a time where I felt like I was capable of anything, now I feel like I’m barely capable of anything. Fibromyalgia is not well understood and often dismissed with a ‘get more exercise’ and ‘eat healthier’, but I used to be a healthy and active person. I will get it under control.